Years later, I still fought nerves. In college, a teacher said in a master class that if you were a great singer, your best performances automatically happened in front of an audience. This nearly ruined me. At the time (and sometimes even to this day) I felt the opposite: I was great in lessons, practice, or rehearsal, but nerves took hold during auditions and competitions. I always sang ok, but I never shined or had FUN the way you were "supposed" to. I recently heard my colleague Diana Rowan address this issue in a brand new way. Regarding her own experience, she said: "I felt like if I had such bad anxiety, it was a sign I had no talent. Which now I know is absolutely not true - sometimes it's the opposite." This was such a lightbulb moment for me! I suddenly saw my relationship with nerves in a whole new light. (Watch Diana's inspirational video here - it's less than 6 minutes long, and so worth it.)
As I sang through this song this morning for Brandon, I felt the perfectionist creep up in me - it was as if my inner critic had turned into a judge behind a table. But to share music - to be able to sing for and with others - is a gift beyond words. So happy Wednesday song day, and enjoy!